Mommy had Chinese food tonight for dinner... Daddy is talking, his voice seems calm & assuring... Pity I can't hear the words clearly. The conversation is muffled but I'm not interested in what's being said... only that I get to be together with them both as I spend my time in this dark cradle. I don't know how I got here... only that when I could hear, it was their voices which spoke to me... When I could feel, it was their love & warmth I received...
"Ouch!" I guess mommy isn't used to this... Wish she didn't plow herself onto the couch each time... Here comes daddy... hehehe... snuggle time, I feel like I'm being squished.... but it's fine.
How much longer do I have to wait till my eyes can gaze upon their faces.... Not much longer I hope...
Aaahhhhhh...... till then, I'll lay patiently & wait...
What the? Josephine?! Who's that??
"Josephine is a nice name... I like it"...... "No.... something else..."
Wonder who those two are talking about.... me maybe? I don't think I have a name.... do I? Oh well, time to get some sleep... Here's a little head's up for the duo....
"Whoah... I guess she's getting angry with our arguing... boy, does she have a temper!" replies mommy........."She gets that from you... hahaha"
They get the message... peace & quiet at last...
Weeks pass.... I'm getting impatient... Guess it's gonna be a little while longer..... Maybe I'll sleep some more...
Wh... What.............I feel..... strange today... like I'm getting weaker... Hearing worsening... Mommy is crying.... I don't hear daddy.... where is he? So sleepy...... so tired...... maybe I'll shut my eyes for a while.......................
........Boy I'm hungry! Time to wake up!.........
Who turned on the lights?! So bright.... hurts my eyes...... Wait a minute, someone's arms are wrapped around me.... mommy?! daddy?!
"Hi there!" an unfamiliar voice..... my eyes focus, no.... it's not mommy.... I've never seen mommy before.... but I know this isn't her....
"Where am I?" I ask....
"You're home now...." says the lady.... she seems nice enough.... but who is she?
"Where are my mommy & daddy?", i ask... "Well, unfortunately they can't come home for a while... but you can visit them if you like!" and suddenly I'm in a different place... not so bright... good! Not used to so much light....
Hey it's daddy! He's sitting down & writing something.... wonder what hat could be.... Maybe just a peek...... hehehe he can't see me, must be something the nice lady did. Ok.... here we go, time to see what daddy has got there....
Dear Josephine,
My heartaches as I write this, dedicating it to the short time you were around & the love you shared with us. I love you very, very much & miss you daily... Mommy does as well, she's still getting over your departure. But I tell her everyday that you are safe now & in good hands.
Waiting patiently till we are all a family again. I want you to know that when we decided to send you away, it wasn't because of you. God how I wish it there was some simpler way to explain this... but I can't seem to find the words while trying to fight back tears of pain which have finally reached its brim.
Know that we think of you everyday & look forward to seeing you again... We pray for you everyday & sometimes try to imagine you in our lives. I hope one day, when we do meet you can find it in your heart to forgive us for abandoning you... But know that when you left, a piece of us went with you as well.
Till we meet again my darling daughter.....
Forever Yours,
Daddy
I don't understand.... what does this mean??? The nice lady explains to me everything. At some points I shield my ears not wanting to hear the truth.... but I must.
What was needed to be said has been done. I sit now, alone... wondering... hoping... wishing...
Thinking of daddy's letter, I giggle..... thinking to myself.... when he comes home, I'll make sure he makes up for it. Can't seem to be angry at him... Must get that from mommy....
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